but the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside...

Okay, so I'm not quite in the best state of mind today... In fact there's something I want to get off my chest. Right here, right now.

I hate you.

There, I finally said it. I hate you. You are insensitive and unkind and you go about things completely the wrong way. And I hate you. Part of me wishes that I didn't, but then again it's taken me two years to get to the day that I can actually finally say that I hate you.

You were my best friend. So why...? I never understood, and I don't understand. You were so happy. I know I'll never get an answer to any of this. But, this is my closure. I dont care anymore. I just don't.

I can't.