So we all know I'm a complete retard. Need further proof off this? view here. I have done something insane today though. I was just listening to this CD. One of only a few half decent CDs may day has ever bought in his life. And I heard this song. And immediately replayed it like five times. I have chosen the song for my father/daughter dance thingo.

She spins and she sways
To whatever song plays
Without a care in the world
And I'm sitting here wearing
The weight of the world on my shoulders

It's been a long day
And there's still work to do
She's pulling me
Saying, 'Dad, I need you.

There's a ball at the castle
And I've been invited
And I need to practise my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?'

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone...

She says he's a nice guy and I'd be impressed
She wants to know if I approve of the dress
She says, 'Dad, the prom is just one week away
And I need to practise my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?'

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone...

And she'll be gone...

She comes home today with a ring on her hand
Just glowing and telling us all they had planned
She says, 'Dad, the wedding is still six months away
But I need to practise my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?'

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone...

You know it's kind of weird. I actually want to learn to dance properly lol. Then again people like me probably couldn't do anything like ballroom dancing. For starters, I'm too uncoordinated for that, besides... It'd just look like a scene from Dance Your Arse Off. Which would be bad. I'll have to see if anyone is insane enough to marry me first.
-10 days-

yep, my patheticness gets worse. but isnt it pretty?

spent quite a while discussing weddings with a few of you. but honestly, two of us agreed these bridesmaid dresses were hideous, and one of us seemed to actually LIKE them. like OMG. (no offence hun, theyre hideous) so let me know your opinion if you want to lol

so we've been talking about it again. weddings. why do we do it? lol. but i think i have decided on the style of my bridesmaids dresses. of course it might change a thousand times between now and when/if that ever happens. And not this colour lol.

okay so anyone who wants to give me opinions on these colours, please do. lol. no, i wont explain why even though im sure you can all guess easily ~blushes~

i like them regardless lol but i'd still love your opinions

damn, that day doesnt fall on a weekend (well.. not one that i'll legally be able to get married on anyway :P) until 2016.

i'll be so OLD then. lol. like 24...?

Oh well... you can all get a weekday off work to come to my wedding whenever i have it :P

I have to just add one more thing here...

I even know the date i want to get married on. Yep, sad I know. But i know the exact date I want to get married on.

I mean, its subject to change i suppose... But... I dont think it will. I'm fairly certain on that one and it'll take me a lot of convincing to change that. i dont care if its not a weekend or whatever, i know the date i want and youre all getting it off work to come to my wedding lol.

Yep, i am completely sad. I have no life. None. At all. As evidenced by this blog, and the one before it.

You know what's quite stupid? Because i've been listening to Love Song by Taylor Swift, I was thinking about my wedding. I mean, I may not even get married. Who knows?

'He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said -
Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone
I love you and thats all i really know
I talked to your dad - go pick out a white dress
Its a love story, baby just say...
yes...'

But... the thing is, i know pretty much how i want most parts of my wedding. i mean... Theres plenty of stuff i havent even bagan to think about. But there is so much that i think about and just go, 'yep, its going to be exactly like this.'

For instance my wedding dress. I know EXACTLY what my wedding dress is going to look like. Exactly. (and if any of you lovely girlies steal it, there'll be consequences :P) ...(totally not kidding lol). I can picture exactly how i will look, and i know who would at this stage be my bridesmaids.

I can see the flowers, and the tables at the reception. I can picture almost everything...

Why is it that we care so much about one day anyway?

I don't really know... But I do. (teehee 'i do'... not intended lol). I can't explain it, i just... I'm not engaged, or anywhere close to it lol. But my wedding day is already a huge big deal to me. And to be honest i guess i dont know why.

I suppose it means i've found someone who loves me enough to want to spend the rest of their life with me. And that would be no easy feat, believe me. But the fact that that would mean i'd found someone stupid enough to want to be with me, who loves me enough... And i guess your wedding day is a day to make that known and stuff... i cant express it, but it makes perfect sense in my head. Yeah, thats great Leish, not much good to anyone bothing to read this eh?

it doesnt even matter. i probably wont get married anyway. And lauren, 'i shall end an old maid and teach your children how to sew and knit'.