my ultimate patheticness...

You know what's quite stupid? Because i've been listening to Love Song by Taylor Swift, I was thinking about my wedding. I mean, I may not even get married. Who knows?

'He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said -
Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone
I love you and thats all i really know
I talked to your dad - go pick out a white dress
Its a love story, baby just say...
yes...'

But... the thing is, i know pretty much how i want most parts of my wedding. i mean... Theres plenty of stuff i havent even bagan to think about. But there is so much that i think about and just go, 'yep, its going to be exactly like this.'

For instance my wedding dress. I know EXACTLY what my wedding dress is going to look like. Exactly. (and if any of you lovely girlies steal it, there'll be consequences :P) ...(totally not kidding lol). I can picture exactly how i will look, and i know who would at this stage be my bridesmaids.

I can see the flowers, and the tables at the reception. I can picture almost everything...

Why is it that we care so much about one day anyway?

I don't really know... But I do. (teehee 'i do'... not intended lol). I can't explain it, i just... I'm not engaged, or anywhere close to it lol. But my wedding day is already a huge big deal to me. And to be honest i guess i dont know why.

I suppose it means i've found someone who loves me enough to want to spend the rest of their life with me. And that would be no easy feat, believe me. But the fact that that would mean i'd found someone stupid enough to want to be with me, who loves me enough... And i guess your wedding day is a day to make that known and stuff... i cant express it, but it makes perfect sense in my head. Yeah, thats great Leish, not much good to anyone bothing to read this eh?

it doesnt even matter. i probably wont get married anyway. And lauren, 'i shall end an old maid and teach your children how to sew and knit'.