wouldnt you rather be a widow than a divorcee...

i was going to post. but now i dont know what i was going to say... there was actually something... and now i dont know what it is.

so instead, here is something a little random for you to puzzle over. why does emotion trigger physical response.

in fact, not just that. but why do certain emotions trigger specific physical responses?

why dont we laugh when someone dies? smile when we hurt ourselves? why dont we cry when someone tells a funny joke?

well, that was random...

anyway...

people in this class are really loud. which means getting work done is almost impossible. as with tuesday, i could have a more productive day at home. but whatever.

sooooooooooo....

you know... when i was little i wasn't scared of much.

i used to climb trees, until i fell from almost the top of a pinetree. didnt break anything. just bruised my arse. but ever since, i've been scared of heights. wont even climb the ladder at work to get something down because i dont like to have my feet off the ground...

i used to like dogs.. but these days they terrify me.

i think i've always hated fire. see we used to have this wood fire in our lounge room. and i was scared of the door being open cos i thought something scary lived inside. i used to help bring in the wood from the wood shed and scrunch the day's newspaper into balls. but as soon as the door was opened id run away...

i guess thats where that fear sparked from. what else am i scared of? i dont even know... theres so much.........

im scared of people leaving me because it always seems that the people who mean the most to me walk out of my life and i never hear from them aagian. except for lately

cos people love me yay! lol. i dont know.. people dont leave for good as much these days...

im scared of trusting people cos it always seems that the people i trust the most are the ones who stab me in the back. then again, as with the above, thats the way it used to be. but not these days.

i just so happens that i have good friends now yay :D lol. and by now i mean for like the past few years.

but anyway. whatever.

i dont know what im going on about here...

take me take me where ever just take me i wanna ride wont you be my guide

you know one thing ive discovered? that i dont know anything. i have all of these things. things that i thought i knew. ways i expected things to be. how i expected things to turn out. but i knew nothing, nothing was how i expected it to be, nothing turns out the way i expect.

which is a bit of a mindfuck really.

cos you expect somethign to happen one way, and next thing you know everything is completely different to what you expected....

if i dont say this now i will surely break.is there a reason? the road i want to take... do i cry too much? am i too outspoken? i fall, i freeze, i pray down on my knees.

you know what i love? the fact that i have facebook on my phone. it makes boring lessons fun :) yay.

and stuff... so yeah.

we're going karaoke-ing. some time anyway. they decided they'd wait for me to turn 18 or else we'll go in the holidays to a place i can get into being under 18 lol. its mine and jessie's fault. for singing so much out the back at work. lol. we're not very good. but it makes sunday morning shifts more fun. lol.

anyway... lunch in 10 mins and i'vespent my entire double lesson blogging, facebooking and talking. lol. lovely. im going to be stressing tonight. just so you all know. if i snap at you or yell at you or whatever then thats cos im stressing and im sorry in advance. lol. going now.
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