Tuesday, June 16, 2009

baby don't go...

refresh... refresh the screen, ten times each minute. sit here knowing i should work but instead just stare a the blank screen. it's not due til friday anyway. no, no i cant get into that routine. stick to the schedule. just stick to the damn schedule.

everything planned, everything worked out, a whole life before my eyes. the tiniest surprise or change freaks me out. well maybe i dont want everything to be planned out, and maybe i need to live on the edge now and again. but i cant.

im too scared. or life. of change. of bad things happening. of getting behind. of not having everything in order anymore.


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