you're always on my mind...

I am looking forward to the end of this year. Seriously, I cannot do it.

I have sat here attempting to read this stupid book (Fly Away Peter just in case you are interested) for the last 2 and a half freaking hours. But it is like something in my brain is going 'you cannot do this. Just give up now. What is the point in trying when you know you are going to fail anyway?'

But another part of me wants to succeed... And wants to do well. Just... Not with this book. -cries-