I shouldn't feel like this. I shouldn't be allowing myself to even consider thinking about it. Or anything, because well... I dont know... none of it matters now anyway. Just give up Leish. Just give up.

I doesn't matter, so just... forget it. You shouldn't even be letting your guard down, keeping up appearences remember? Not that saying thats going to help... it hasn't so far.

Nothing matters. Not now. Not anymore. So forget it.